For me?

A few days ago a friend and I were leaving a rehearsal and on our way out the door I told her that I was feeling slightly light-headed. I knew that I was feeling that way because it had been quite awhile since I had a meal before our 2 hr.rehearsal. She had a snack in her purse and gave it to me and offered to follow me home in her car because I insisted that I wasn’t in such a state that I needed to be driven home by someone else….

COMMERCIAL: THIS WAS SUCH A BAD IDEA NOW THAT I REFLECT ON IT BECAUSE ALTHOUGH MY DRIVE HOME WAS BRIEF AND I WAS SO FOCUSED IN ON GETTING HOME TO TEND TO MY BABIES AND SEE MY HUBBY THAT I FAILED TO CONSIDER MY NEEDS AND TEND TO MYSELF…SOMETIMES WE FORGET AS MOMS THAT WHEN WE TEND TO OURSELVES WE ARE TENDING TO EVERYONE WE CARE ABOUT. HOW CAN I HOLD MY 7 MONTH OLD IF I’M LIGHTHEADED OR RUN AFTER MY 2YO IF I’M DIZZY, OR WORSE YET IF I’M DEAD :(…DOESN’T MAKE MUCH SENSE, HUH? BUT IT HAPPENS TO THE BEST OF US AND MOST, IF NOT ALL, MOMS ARE GUILTY OF THIS CRIME ATLEAST ONCE. SO HEALTHY MOMMY RESULTS IN HEALTHY EVERYBODY AND A HAPPIER ENVIRONMENT. IT IS NOT SELFISH TO PUT YOURSELF FIRST,  IT IS JUST THE OPPOSITE, SELFLESS, BECAUSE YOU ARE CARING FOR YOU WITH THE INTEREST TO CARE FOR YOUR FAMILY AS WELL. SELFISH WOULD BE DELIBERATELY FOCUSING IN ON YOURSELF AND DISREGARDING THE FEELINGS AND NEEDS OF YOUR CHILDREN/YOUR FAMILY..

BUT I DIGRESS, I THINK YOU GET THE POINT–

So anywho:) I started to feel less light-headed after a few bites of the snack she gave me. While walking to our cars she said she has had something for me at her house for almost a year and kept forgetting to bring it for me. She’s always talking about the kids and loving on them so I assumed it was for them. Since she lived very close to where we were, less than 6 mins., and I started to feel better, I agreed to stop by her house and then we would head to my place after.  She brought this huge bag  to my car, I figured I’d see the gift at home so I didn’t bother to peek in it. She jumped in her car and followed me to my home. On our way to my home we were on the phone and I just kept thanking her for the gift because I feel so blessed when someone considers my children with a gift. I wasn’t sure if it was for my son or my daughter, but while we’re chatting she asked what size shoe do you wear, but for some reason I heard, what size shoe does your son wear. I responded and told her he is a 9.5/10. Funny enough that is my shoe size too. So she is like, no, NOT FOR YOUR SON, FOR YOU. I was in disbelief! It wasn’t my birthday, a special holiday, etc. I was speechless. She gave me two pairs of shoes that she bought awhile back for herself and were never worn because they were too big for her and she thought they would look great on  me.

Sexy in Red

Sparkling in Emerald

I just thought it was so interesting that I automatically assumed and thought of my children being gifted and not me. But isn’t that the story of a momma’s life, kids first and ourselves second. Well maybe it’s time to be selfless and enjoy my gift that my very thoughtful friend gave me and go out on a hot date with my hubbsters in these shoes and reunite with my children in a stupendous mood because I got to take care of me and still enjoy them at the end of the day. I’M BLESSED! Embrace the little getaways that you can have and embrace your little kiddies while they are little because they grow so fast!

These shoes are drop dead gorgeous as you can see and make this MOMMA feel soooooo not a momma, but instead like a single twenty something young woman dating my husband again:)..But hey, who says a momma can’t wear some sexy heels and still rock a diaper bag and baby in tow one day:)!

“Those Mommas” (Misconception)

2 under 2 is exactly what it states 2 children under 2yo. Which means a momma who has 2 kids that can be as little as 11 months apart to 23 months apart.

I had compassion for “those mommas”, believing that despite the joys of children, it is anything but a walk in the park to have two so close in age. I knew motherhood wasn’t easy, but I just couldn’t imagine raising two healthy and grounded children so close in age and keep my sanity. So, I had it all planned out and vowed that it would not happen to me. And then…

In the fall of 2012 I saw an acquaintance at a friend’s baby shower who was 6 months pregnant with her 2nd child. My compassion for “those mommas” went out to her because in less than 4 months she would be a momma with 2 under 2. I remember telling her how strong she is and just expressing that I could not imagine being able to handle 2 under 2 because my hands are full enough raising my 1 under 1. Which is why I ended that conversation along the lines of a second child was nowhere near my mind nor my husband’s. We were more than content with our prayed for bouncing baby boy. And then….

God has an interesting sense of humor because my second half of my 2 under 2, my miracle blessing, was conceived that very month. I MAY HAVE EVEN ALREADY BEEN PREGNANT or atleast the bun began roasting, while giving my lovely acquaintance kudos for being a supermom, not realizing I would have to soon speak life into myself for this unique journey!